cant slp last nite. my mind was on shopping shopping and shopping. what i want to buy. what i can buy and what i cant. when to start shopping. what am i gona do to my hair. what to do to my face. how to make my hair grow longer in shortest time. money. heels. work. fats. exercise. stuff lidat. make me even more awake.

finally fell aslp and had bad dream last night.
I dream tt i was wit yee dono at wher. shes talking but i wasnt listening cus i was not feeling well. cus i was having serious blackout at tt time. she finally realised and she asked me what happen. i said nth cus i dint eat anything fer past few days(i oso dont know why. but i tink is dieting cus i got money wit me) and i dont want her to noe. she touched my arm and said i was freaking cold. no body temperature. she wanted to bring me to clinic budden i dint make it there. i fainted. zzzzzzzz forgotten what happened nxt den mum woke me up =.=








[EDITED;02:17AM]
I rlly hate anything which have links to ex-bfs sometimes.
it just makes me go crazy in the wrong way =.=
wadevr actually im just mad at myself fer losing the game alrite.

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now. things aint so fine
and i realised hes what i rlly nid =/
i dont like giving support to ppl anymore.
losing the stand, losing my balance but i wont fall.
thought i would still like his strong arms to just wrap ard me & hug me to slp.
hes was the only one giving me all i evr nid.






it's like so insercure now ;(