my world

back to basics

2008-08-31T00:13:00.002+08:00

it feel back like the first time

2008-08-30T00:57:00.002+08:00

everlasting. bond. love. peace. bliss
????????????

2008-08-18T20:27:00.003+08:00

im not blogging here anymore. im swopping over to my new blogger :D my precious blog here is gona rot cus i dont want to delete it either hurhur. new blog new start. just me and ma baby. friends pls relink me thks

&&
i love you ling ;)

much love.

say goodbye

2008-08-14T17:44:00.004+08:00

How many gfs in this world are actually fer real? mayb 1 or 2 in this life fer me?

who wil be dere, whos the take fer granted ones, whos treat ppl as spare tires, who look down on ppl, whos the closest, whos the fake one. all these i think are all blurish to others bt we noe deep down inside.

we like to wear masks, dont we?
we're all as evil. im not trying to make myself feel better alright. this is the real world. let ppl do to you while you sit and be prepared to get stabbed. i cant do this anymore cus nice ppl always die earlier.

Just understand this; people come and go.

evn the sweetest thing cn be dumped to the back of the brain.

why should i care ? why should i bother?
whatmore, they're not evn my husband/children/family etc.

ciao.

2008-08-14T00:56:00.002+08:00

baby over at ma place. hurhur~
u sucks darling. i love you.
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what does it pays to be a good person? nothing.
what does it pays to do more than usual? nothing.
what does it pays to work harder? nothing.

now whats wrong wit me? nothing.
then why am i typing this? cus nothing.

love is in d air

2008-08-12T14:08:00.004+08:00

gonna prepare earlier ltr on~ fetching ma precious. i wana go far east to develop some digital prints hurhur~ awwwwwwh im soooooooo sad. anymore slimmer and i believe my boobs n butt wil disappear. cnt my face just slim down ABIT insteat of boobs ;(((((((((

&& i want wilber's new album
hurhurhur~

2008-08-11T23:45:00.002+08:00

Wilber Pan Wei Bo 潘瑋柏 ~ 轉機

my pretty boy

2008-08-11T00:20:00.006+08:00

pardon pale face.

im sorry baby. though it's hard but please forgive me fer what i've done just now. i love you my dearest. i wont let anyone steal u ok. & i hate the fact that ure starting work tml ;(

2008-08-10T01:46:00.006+08:00

spent two hours cleaning the room. so much dust cn. it's so much better now.miraclely my bro helped in cleaning it's like so wowwww hah. kepo kip following baby only tsktsk. national day spent at home uh. love the fireworks right syg. hurhur~

look at their slpy eyes heh

i hate..

2008-08-09T00:57:00.001+08:00

sucks im feeling feverish

swollen

2008-08-07T01:04:00.003+08:00

okay aft alot alot happened. i mit up wit limin today.
sort of slacking day. we had two dinners just now,damn full.
baby came to mit us slightly later. ps den went home.
i enjoyed the mitup laopo though it's only awhile.

my eyes cant open properly now. slpt so late last nite and woke up @ 10am. canot take it sia. must rlly rest alr. i want my baby to rest properly oso. we two hav rlly turned into zombie cn. ok~ i comfy bed is calling fer me. love u dearest. muacks.

chill baby chill

2008-08-06T00:51:00.005+08:00

went fer his interview. bought hairdye and headed home. i love HOYU. i tink it's the best of all.
home cooked food. so long dint get to hav a taste of it. hehs i mean my mum's ;) & i hope baby get use to it. lovelove. dyed his hair fer him, luckily turned out good. look cuter uh weeeets~
baby went off ard 12plus, missed last bus hence he walked back. this is the advantage of staying near alrights hehe. okay im off to call my babylove. gdnite :D

our heart beat as one

2008-08-05T00:05:00.004+08:00

huhu i made this my wallpaper. i love him innocent face. he step one innocent only heh~ no lar have to accept the fact tt he've got a bloody innocent face cn. unlike mine; evil face. wit that innocent looks, ppl like him tends to have some privilleges.

we slacked the whole day. feeling so bored in sg. i cant wait fer another trip heh. watched "The Mummy " wit baby just now. Rating i give 3.5 overall not bad. damn im having stomach cramps cn. was just tinking last night " wow menses is nt giving me cramps *giggles* " and turned out this morning i was waken up by dat pain -.- so suay~ panadol oso cant help me wit it.

i miss you ling.
though i hav ur shirt wit ur smell.
im missing u already.

u this shitass. aft bloggin this here comes a "gd news" wow. no more mood. byebye.

2008-08-04T01:02:00.006+08:00

back frm airport. tired man today.
i noticed i dint hav any pic of my own only his.
i woke up too early 9.15am zzzz -.-"

baby

he came over n ate at my place. ahhaha he cn rlly play wit xuan2 snatch psp like two small kids. dat egghead cn actually call my mum "darling" by accident. hahaha he burst out into laughter instantly cn. mum nagged at him abt his job, warned him many things. we only looked at each other giving dat here-she-goes kind of face hurhur. huhu && sth exciting hes gona clean ma room wit me. its a gd thing fer a lz bum like me,isnt it? hiaks.

i wana shoppppp. i in love wit that kind of dress and i've yet to get my skirt, my guess bag, more tops more lingeries, i stil owe him one lonsdale. hah one of my fav sports brand heh.

hrmm, i wonder wher i keep dat shirt. im looking fer it. going to rest alr. nida wake up early tml too. swit dreams wan an~

sorry world

2008-07-31T21:54:00.003+08:00

i think im the worst creation on earth. pick on me. come come pick on me. yes im forever the stubborn one. i dont know what im feeling now bt stress is definately in the picture. evrything is nv enough, what more cn i do. somehow i just refuse certain things. i just wana dig a hole and stay inside forevr. i dono whats happening now and i dono wher the usual cjx went..

2008-07-31T20:21:00.001+08:00

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew

Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care

2008-07-31T01:15:00.005+08:00

now i noe i cn rlly think like a biatch hah. hmm sad case man. im going to start work soon. so it means lesser time wit ma baby. lucky hes understanding. n ling dun be cheeky dun be cheeky dun be cheeky~ haiyoooo! start work this coming sunday. no more slacking relaxing life bt at least money is like finally near me heh. && limin is going to find job so freaking near me. i hope she get the job huhu.

okay gdnite baby. muackmuack!~

lovelove;

2008-07-29T02:08:00.004+08:00

27 july'08 sunday

mit up wit this precious of mine.
we went shopping ;)

28july'08 - monday

woke up super early 10plus.
mit up at tpy den to cityhall fer his interview.
hah!~ the uniform freak us out.
the rest of the day we just rot -.-"
once again, sg is so boring.

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lastly, i crop this pic cus i like his face here huhu.
so innocent. though hes not! opps opps~
love ma baby~

k im signing out. baby is nagging on the pone. nights~

2008-07-25T01:32:00.003+08:00

mit up wit ma beloved wifey ytd. i miss her so much cn. i tink i forgot to thk her fer ma belated bday present, shall msg her aft this. huhu i love that necklace, wit ma name on it. thks laopo! love you many :D mwahhs!

other den that mitup. past 1week spent wit darling. few days in a row kip going out until we find SG so boring cn. hahaha ya la SG is small.

&& omg! fer the first time in ma life i received flowers frm bf.
hahaha. thks ling hehe

woohoo im trying on sth new. i hope it works hehs.
byebye im off to call my baby. gdnite!

2008-07-22T01:41:00.002+08:00

i will be.

how to define?

2008-07-21T00:56:00.003+08:00

somehow i stil refuse.

ache

2008-07-19T00:58:00.003+08:00

i look chubby pardon me. such an fatass

think hard;

2008-07-18T02:06:00.006+08:00

lets be good.

time wil prove evrything

2008-07-15T14:13:00.005+08:00

And there's hearts all over the world tonight,

Said the hearts all over the world tonight

This love;

2008-07-14T03:47:00.011+08:00

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MUCH LOVE!

muted..

2008-07-10T23:05:00.005+08:00

kept saying i wont mention but it's stil the issue. i dont wish to talk abt it anymore, and this time round i rlly wont kip asking. i think i should kip quiet cus anyway none wil understand my stand. please cjx be anything but not that dickhead who sucks in evrything.

2008-07-10T20:14:00.002+08:00

im so afraid bt im acting like im not..
the two wounds i saw, could it be some kind of symtoms of diabetes ?
omg i dont want him to cut any body parts,i dont want him to have any illness, i dont want him to die. omg omg omg. sorry if i link too far, but im just scared ;(

i see you see me

2008-07-08T18:54:00.009+08:00

w/o thick eyeliner day

miting ma baby shall blog ltr bye~

070708

2008-07-07T21:41:00.004+08:00

i backspaced evrything..

040708

2008-07-04T22:32:00.003+08:00

i deleted my previous post. i apologised here in my blog k bt sth in me just make me delete it. i duno what to say nw, im feeling so freaking insecure and so many diff kind of feelings. too hard to be explain and express. whatevr it is cjx pls be careful. mayb it's hitting us back in this way. so many things coming up one by one. i dont dare to see whats infront..

040708

2008-07-04T19:54:00.001+08:00

030708

2008-07-04T00:51:00.003+08:00

so hard to be convinced..

020708

2008-07-03T00:20:00.007+08:00

new member of da family~ozzy.

named aft his daddy haha
out wit lesha and darling came ltr to mit us.
he built me a bear hehslesha love her new bro

ling love ozzy too.thks baby fer da bear and
da myphosis slipper which i finally found.
and i realised i dint take pic wit my ozzy -.-"
okayokay shall end here.

gdnite!~ loves

300608

2008-06-30T11:46:00.008+08:00

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three days in a row went out wit him. saw daphy at bugis one of the days. i was so shocked upon seeing her. my pone got problem again. grrrrrr! our photos!~ so sorry daphy! i cant load dem. shall take again whn we mit up.

ytd was out to spend money, do abit of shopping bt only got one top. the other day one polo tee fer him and one dress. disappointing. whn i go shopping i cant find anything i like but when i've got no money to spend, 101 things to buy. such an ass. chey!~

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
'Cause I can, cause I can do it better
There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in

290608

2008-06-29T13:13:00.003+08:00

im waiting fer baby to come so fer the meantime i'll blog first. Went out ytd and at penin he did sth so careless. he left his key wit the helmet covering fer hours. haha what an lucky ass man he. u wont noe what wil happen if the key is shown to public right. tsktsk. hmm i've been whining all the way ytd im so not happy. baby just listen and dint make any noise. i wonder how he tahan all this nonsense.

260608

2008-06-26T19:35:00.015+08:00

- camwhore -

too tall~ tiptoe tiptoe!

;(

half-faced lesha

;)

loveloveloves

250608

2008-06-25T23:43:00.003+08:00

huhu just came home nt long bt i've yet to bathe. so lz~ mayb aft this la. okay aft our course finish we seldom hang out alr. today mit up wit lesha awhile. im late -.-" yes again so sorry! so i cabbed down to bugis to mit her and acc ma darling fer his break. irritating cn those teenages doing the donation thingy. sucker man dey all, kip pestering us. And i tot today i could sell my lousy samsung pone but unfortunately i cant find any pone i like so i dropped the idea =/ *sigh*

went to his FAVOURITE shopping mall hahahha. such an ass lo this guy. hurhur && today is the 25th of june. special day okie~ will work hard to make our 11feb2010 not to happen. we'll both go there together like how we act and imagine our drama hahs. nt gona eleborate further cus tts between we both alr hehe. okay im off to bathe.

much much love

240608

2008-06-24T19:14:00.004+08:00

Hes the one here wit me.

my lilboy whom i love to takecare, my baby whom i follow bhind his butt heh, darling whom take all my nonsense, my syg who pamper me, my cheeky ass who 'bargain' wit me, my innocent boy whom bcame my guinea pig, my 22yrs old swit tooth guy, my moron who like smelly breath, my regular customer of ***** ***** huhu. hes the person i love to irritate, the person i care, the person i dote on, the arms i hold on to and the reason why.

yesyes hes mine~
all mine, inside out.

i love ma baby!!! ^.^

ohya almost forget,
ling, i stil dun like ur psp,
dey always steal u away idiot >.<

230608

2008-06-23T23:41:00.005+08:00

dishonest

Dreaming that someone is dishonest, or takes dishonest or unethical actions, can mean:

You feel someone is being dishonest, unethical, or not telling the whole truth in real life, or you're afraid this could happen
You're feeling the world is generally dishonest or untrustworthy
You're feeling dishonest or unethical
You've compromised your integrity or are not being honest with yourself somehow

catching someone

Catch someone doing something you think they shouldn't can mean:

You're feeling watchful or suspicious right now somehow in your life
You feel you have power over the person because you have a special knowledge or understanding of them (or wish you did)
You want to see that person punished or get into trouble, perhaps because you feel they've been dishonest or unfair
You're feeling the need to monitor others or take responsibility for their actions, or it can represent nosiness, vigilance, over-vigilance, or inserting yourself into others' business

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okay sth very dumb. i sprained my neck last night and i feel so stiff now. i cant do big actions or even turn my head fully. so sucky the feeling. turn abit and it hurts like hell can! i want my neck to be okay~ back to normal~~~~!!!!! *sigh* and im so fugly now. sry ah i nt cute and pretty enough.

btw i gt so disgusted by some actions of someone. omggg~ i rlly cant imagine she does that. disgrace tsktsk. and i think now my mood is in the danger zone hahhahahahaha. dun come near anyone. im nt happy now hahaha come on~ hahhahahahahhahhahhahhahahhaha ugrh!~~~~

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2008-06-20T19:02:00.005+08:00

one of my all-time-favourite gerl..

TILA TEQUILA~

shes hotttt~ ahem*
i cant stop saving her pics hahahha =x
looking gd in both long&short hair.

i dun fancy zero size- nicole richie anymore.
hurhur~

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went mustafa aft baby finish work. nw hes working and im home waiting to rot. ohya almost forget abt his job thingy okieokie im off to check. byeeeeeeeeeee!~ loveloves

170608

2008-06-17T00:02:00.004+08:00

i miss nicolata~
i wonder hw gorgerous she look now.
cant wait to see her can.

140608

2008-06-15T02:57:00.008+08:00

another night spent together,
sth i would like to say....

i love irritating youuuuuuuuuuuu moron.

130608

2008-06-13T19:00:00.002+08:00

yesyesyes im spending ur money away
im an ass, im not working, im not looking fer any.
i shop and shop shop shop away ur money izit.
yayaya suck cock. i hate you
al of u nag bt dono whats happening
dickhead

faye run away!

please,
run away

130608

2008-06-13T13:40:00.006+08:00

BMC days came to an end. We all came to study bt i tink we got sth more precious, more memorable, sth unpredictable, sth we wouldnt want to lose. friendship/love trust me. i rlly dint expect to gain all these at d beginning.

i feel so weird nt waking up early to morning kol my baby to make him go sch. weird to not see each other evryday evn whn we skipped class,we chill somewher and mit lesha aft 12 huhu. these kind of life comes to an end. The end is just another beginning.

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awww i love this cute ass

i stil hav to complain. im growing so fat. i wana lose 5kg. evn if i faint, i dont care this time round. slim down slim down. i got many motivation this time round. haha byebye off to call daphy.

xoxo,
faye

090608

2008-06-09T18:52:00.002+08:00

awww~ swit~
i love lesha!! ^.^

090608

2008-06-09T01:37:00.002+08:00

Ahem! i seriously feel like chopping off my fats. i think soon im gona get depression. haiiiiiii ;( those excess fats go away can. i can rlly feel it all over my body especially my thighs. i think its so thick like treetrunk/elephant. tsktsk how how how how how. depressed man. i miss slim legs, slim arms, slim face -.-" im so habbo nw. kill me olrite. fats is always an issue to me. no matter what.

huhu somebody very proud alr la. evrything first first first first first. btl tk? sucker. hahaha bt im oso very proud, many things i proud of. sure ppl wont think of one. i like to disturb2 ppl hehe mayb lesha wil noe.

sunday

maths. town. dancers(quite dissappointing -.-). went down to buy cigers. off to east coast. stupid stories we talk until i panic at almost evrything. bk to serangoon. supper cupnoodles. home swit home.lovelove ^.^

gdnights fat cjx~

070608

2008-06-07T13:39:00.000+08:00

lil india sucks, ahnehs kip aiming scanning frm head to toe.
i must admit im rlly very stubborn. sry baby
btw i feel like taking it nw bt i alr feel like fainting & puking -.-" cjx resist!
im very unhappy wit television and FMH magazines!!!~
ohya, something very cool happened ytd hehs
loveloves

060608

2008-06-06T11:12:00.004+08:00

hahaha was actually trying to rest only bt i woke up only in the morning hahaha. i slpt all the way frm 9pm to this morning. hell early i slp can. all i rmb is msging while i was half awake then i rmb nth haha. huhu since my slpyhead is slping, i've longer time to prepare. anw i've yet to start preparing heh. shall bathe aft i finish this post. like habit to blog ah, boring den i login blogger hah. class is getting so boring and meaningless, meant as well stay home. i want to do my hair again, i tink it sucks now. i look like shit overall since starting of may ;(

damn i getting fatter and im so not happy, i want to go back to 41kg. i rlly cant accept the fact that im heavier den usual. i gained weight and i feel like hell. i want to lose weight!~~~~ but i stil want my boobs heh. its not working cn?! im so flared up. i feel like puking and fainting, my heart beats so fast and blackouts anywher and almost evrywher. tsktsk, pls dont nag at me bt i just cant help it though im oso afraid. despite al these scary experiences i did the same mistake this morning. i hope i dont die so soon, i stil havent yet to see many things in life. i noe i've spoilt my body.

work it work it. gimme my slim body.

040608

2008-06-04T18:07:00.002+08:00

i better blog certain things in another blog of mine.
too swit things wont appear here,
not to mention our pictures(though so far i dint upload).
& im not gona react to ppl's critism, i wont lose my mind at this point of time.
but i've to state it clearly that i dint steal or seduce.
i was attached then. if im stealing hes doing the same too.
nid to see the full picture nt just half.
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okok enough said.

skipped sch td, die2 hav to go tml.
**** cant attend sch tml due to training.
tsktsk~ sucks exam is coming.
not yet prepared wth.

030608

2008-06-03T20:21:00.004+08:00

baby came sch, lunched at ljs den he went bk to camp.
took out eyelashes extension, turns quite botak -.- ( feel like burning tt shop)
walked ard bugis wit lesha, went simlim. saw gold color pone.
i likeeee~ im considering if i should get it.

Alot of things nid to buy, cosmetics & foaming gel always finish at d same time.
im spending quite alot recently, bt i dono what i spend on =/
grrrrr! ~ money wher are you? $.$

much love! bye~

010608

2008-06-01T15:55:00.001+08:00

eyelashes dropping -.-"
should i touch it up now or tml?
tsktsk. now? eh nonono tml.
aiya now la >.<

310508

2008-05-31T20:50:00.004+08:00

Taurus

"Slow and steady wins the race" could easily be a motto for Mars in Taurus. These goal-oriented people are not known for their speed, but their staying power is tremendous.

Generally calm and easygoing people, Mars in Taurus natives can have powerful tempers when they're overly provoked. They generally don't fly off the handle as quickly as others.

In a similar vein, attempting to rush Mars in Taurus people is a lesson in frustration. They won't alter their pace for most anything.

Taurus men and women can be possessive in love, and they are threatened by fast-paced, high-energy situations in the context of relationships and love. These are sensual partners who require lots of "hands-on" expressions of love. Their lovers may complain that Venus in Taurus can get a little too comfortable and settled. It's true that they resist change in their relationships, but even when they seem stuck in a groove, you can always reassure yourself by remembering that they are constant partners.

Pleasing Venus in Taurus involves emphasizing your loyalty, and their worth to you. You may need to give in to them in love matters, because they won't readily give in to you! Get physical with them; do comfortable things. Avoid pushing them in love -- give them plenty of time. You will probably need to cultivate patience if you are in a relationship with Venus in Taurus. Remember to be simple and natural -- Taurus will appreciate it. Promise them a comfortable, cozy time.

There is a serenity to them that is calming. In fact, it takes a lot to really get to them. However, they do get off-center every once in a while. They are not the most adaptable people when their own routine is interrupted, for example.Often rather possessive in partnership, these natives won't easily break up their relationships. Although they are not particularly jealous, they view their partners as their personal property. Intensity and loyalty are especially important to Taurus rising natives. These are highly sensual people who prefer the comforts that a one-to-one, stable partnership offers. Although Taurus rising individuals value harmony and calm, their partnerships may be on the passionate side.

Taurus rising natives are often very comforting to be around. They have a stability about them that is soothing, and an inner harmony that is attractive.

300508

2008-05-31T02:34:00.001+08:00

kay im here hurhur. dint go sch fer two days. lz and you-noe-why reason. lesson is getting so boring. my talkative mouth cant stop hah, quiet den too quiet, noisy den too noisy hurhur ~ penattttttt. eyes going close alr bt i stil dont feel like slping yet. and now im here yawning -.-" hahaha assignment stuck dere nt evn halfway like wth, exams approaching noe. tsktsk!

went to mit lesha and eunice wit ling. wana pass eunice her bday present, today her bday. want to say sorry again not going to the bbq. i rlly cant make it. shall make it up fer you one day wit the rest of d gfs ok? hope u like the present frm me. stay pretty *winks!
Eunice went bk to sch. walked ard wit lesha and ling. we always do stupid acts together hah. love dem can can can can can hehs. both my precious babies. Off to beach rd aft lesha left, den bk to hav dinner wit bro. ppl kip looking at us -.-"

not cut off, i intend to take solo pic -.-

another day just end again.
bye world.

300508

2008-05-29T01:49:00.000+08:00

I can hear you calling, whisper something in my ear
Tell me what I wanna hear
It sounds so good spoil me rotten to the core

270508

2008-05-28T14:01:00.000+08:00

was browsing thru my old files and i found some pictures. we changed so much aft all these yrs. heh we're like lil gerls then, nw slowly changing..i wonder how wil we be in 5-10 yrs to come. 4yrs of friendship and stil counting. my gfs~~ lovelove!

faye&daphy

paris&nicole hurhur *winks*

the wifey loveee.

euniceee~

gfs~~ we're gona mit up very soon.
hees eunice bday this time round :]

260508

2008-05-26T16:33:00.000+08:00

wth im doing again.
please kill me, pain is nt only in both of you
im feeling it oso.

bye world.

250508

2008-05-24T15:18:00.000+08:00

if only i can turn myself into size zero in one week..
if only i can do wonders..
if only i can turn myself into that amazing person i wana be..
if only things can go the way we want it..
if only heels dont hurts..
if only i hav no excess fats..
if only im slimmer and hotter..
if only there're no facts..
if only fights dont happen..
if only we can take control of our life..
if only we can choose evrything..
if only we can hav a topview of evrything..
if only ppl dont cheat..
if only ppl appreciate..
if only money drop frm sky..
if only we dont lie..

240508

2008-05-24T10:11:00.000+08:00

somehow connected,
i noe you feel it.

230508

2008-05-22T16:03:00.000+08:00

i deleted my last post. find it so meaningless. abit2 can fight, make my head bigger. i noe u bother tts why fight but not evryday, am i right. it sucks to talk abt clothes and eyes, rlly. wrapppp up k all wrap up. no sexy no hot no eyes no worries. but once again im diff frm her. im faye, the gerl u noe frm the start. accept me fer who iam olrites? pls understand.
peace fer one day dear

i nid to throw my excess fats away

190508

2008-05-19T15:14:00.000+08:00

i dare nt underestimate hw fast is our mrt tsktsk
Reach jp 1hr earlier lucky got ppl acc me fer tt 1hr,
if not i tink i'll die down dere so many ahnehs! -.-"

slack, laugh at ppl,talk cock.
another day just end like this.

we've seen the diff
& we noe we'll nv mit another same soul.

150508

2008-05-16T15:08:00.000+08:00

huhu im back. today so tiring can. firstly, i have to apologise to lesha fer just walking away earlier on in the aftnoon due to some misunderstanding wit someone. i noe u'll understand right lesha. sorry ya! hees, loves!

okay! spent almost the whole day at town. yes i went class fer 10mins and i rushed off -.- waste time right moron. someone la early morning make me fume only. nvm now ok alr so lesha no nid worry too much. shopping today, tiring can. ended up buying only one top frm MNG tsktsk. dont make noise abt the top alr i'll wear sth inside ok heh idiot. and the perfume 'david beckham instinct' is damn manly can. loveeeeee it so much. i cant stop smelling perfume hahaha. now no nid to smell it evrytime i enter watson alr. wil get to smell it tml onwards huhu. gotta bathe aft blogging this. so sticky can. yuck!

awww sch gona end v soon. juneeeeeeee
gona miss bmc peeps especially ma two babies.
-

im a v stubborn gerl. the more u try to back me off, the more firm im standing here. im so aware of it olrite. im faye yes F-A-Y-E. i might be 17 bt ppl always tot im19, 20yrs old whn dey get to noe me. anyone who dono me pls dont anyhow judge me, you got no rights at all. im doing things my way and i clearly noe what im doing. im aware of things bt stil im here. understanding is what a gerl should be and i'll always try to be but only to certain ppl. im chinese, and im proud to be one. yes i prefer malay guys. whats wrong. 21 century alr, it's so common alr unless u dint step out of ur hse at all. communication is stil the key to evrything.

i cant deny that im sometimes childish but it's only at certain times. who isnt childish i ask u. evryone hav a kid in the heart aft all. if you hav not seen me in person or noe me, you wouldnt noe my character. i only show my true self to ppl im comfortable wit. al u nida do is make ppl comfortable and i got my ways just that whether i wana show. hurhur, wth man. i canot understand how come some gerls can act in funny way tsktsk. pls lar as if i cast spell or put curse on ppl -.-" ohya sth i gotta say is, whn u try to bring ppl down to rise urself. it always backfires. k tts all byeeeeeeee

130508

2008-05-14T09:00:00.000+08:00

gone gone gone gone gone gone gone.
bye wan =/

mayb it's rlly time to move on.

120508

2008-05-12T22:10:00.000+08:00

[EDITED@12:58AM]

was browsing thru friendster and i happened to see a gerl's acc. the one i saw some time ago, her bf passed away due to motor accident. awww, it's like omg. my heart can feel that heartache just tinking of it. im not a friend of this couple fyi. it's only the second time viewing this acc and i stil feel the funny feeling in my heart. they're separated due to death omg. the gerl stil constantly write comment to her bf's friendster asking him to come back. it's like so sad. life is so unpredictable. loved ones leaving u so suddenly, i cant imagine it. if im in her situation, i'll cry til i go blind i guess and sure bcome depression. it's like end of the world to me if such thing evr happen.

i just feel so sorry fer dem.

100508

2008-05-11T12:08:00.000+08:00

just came bk frm parkway. u noe why i went dere lar. wasted money in supermarket only. hah must invest abit alr. other den that i seriously nid to get my butt up to do some workouts if not i'll grow v fat. i got many things on the shopping list but im so broke now. anyone support me? huhu. hmm, no job. class timing totally clash wit almost all the jobs and im stil not yet 18. so hard to find. sucker zzzzzz -.-"

I rlly have to show my independent side since evrything got so messy. and other den love life, my daily life is equally bad. im jobless,i want money and i seriously hate my fats. this three things is definitely major enough to kill me. hmm, what more. okay im very very speechless towards friends. Always run to me whn they nid someone but yet nv here whn i nid dem. what the shit. yes majority im refering are gerls. it's not always nice to have all guys ard me. Eventually gerls are gerls, i just wana have fun. i doubt evn a gerls day out will make up all the lost feelings. it's just isnt the same anymore. i just feel so different alr. no longer innocent. no longer simple-minded. I can no longer bring myself to put total trust on anyone now. I just wana depend on myself.

If you love me, u'll wait until the time is right.
If you love me, u'll hold on no matter what.

all the damaged i've done im v sorry,
bt all this while i did make u smile didnt i?

080508

2008-05-09T14:14:00.000+08:00

aiyeeeee. im growing fat alr. flabby arms and chubby face.

nida slim down seriously. must see bones evrywher den i happy hurhur
gona work hard enough. i want to see result soon.
if not i can bang the wall alr. i dontwant be baby elephant =/

huhu ma current bmc life, one more month wit dem tsktsk. dey're great friends. dint regret coming bmc. rlly enjoy being crazy wit dem. but eventually friends come and go, only a few wil be left in ur life, left ard u. hmm what to do..evn ma closest gfs, we dint mitup much seriously. all of us sort of drifted apart. we all hav our own life to struggle and enjoy. this is life man. gotta adapt to all these things. changes changes changes. definitely i'll mis the bmc peeps aft our course finish. hurhurrrrrrrrr.

-

seriously i dono whats gona happen nxt
evryday things change abit by abit.
you gotta show how much u nid a person at some point of time.
rlly. it's a very wrong time to play wit ego.

whn ego comes into the picture,
ure risking it actually.

070508

2008-05-08T15:20:00.000+08:00

woah. i rlly nid to go do my eyelashes alr.

it's like anytime i scare might drop zzzzzzz -.-
tink i cried too much this few days tts why. sucks!

hmm BMC gona end very soon, june.
sad right. the few morons in class i'll miss so much.

and im v broke. im not working bt can spend money.
wth okay! huhu k la. im falling aslp soon. byeeee!

060508

2008-05-07T16:44:00.000+08:00

the day finally arrived and it's like end of the world for three of us. so much tears, dispute and pain. i wanted to dig a hole, hide inside and dont evr come out. i dono how to face da bf anymore. guilt is killing me. i spoilt sth used to be nice and beautiful. i broke both ur trust. i betrayed both. i dont deserve anyone right now. i dono what to do. my mind is currently so blank bt al i rmb nw is i cried like shit ytd. ytd was the saddest and lousiest day of this year. i rlly want to die at that moment. both side are pulling me. i noe i sucks. i bring pain to both. im rlly afraid letting go and at the same time changes. i doubt i'll b forgiven. The damage i've done, i noe nth can be compared to it. all i can say is im very sorry, extremely sorry. i cant evn figure out. i noe all the things will nv be the same anymore. no matter how much love, i betrayed evrything. it's like im back to square one. just let me stone one corner. but i must stil bear in mind i only can have one. it's one to one. nv and no more one to two.

now things on both side wil nv be the same. i spoilt the love and trust i built. serve me right i noe. feeling like shit now. nobody wil actually understand. i hope i can mia forevr.

030508

2008-05-03T04:16:00.000+08:00

I could be your confidante
Just one of your girlfriends
But I know that's not what you want
If tomorrow the world ends
Why shouldn't we be with the one we really love?
Now tell me who have you been dreaming of?
I and I alone, oh, no.

If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine
I can make it nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Baby I'm perfect for you

Excuse me for feeling
This moment is critical
Might be we feel it
It could get physical

Lets see what love can do

-

i dont wana lose it
cause i know if we evr lose it
some things we'll nv find

010508

2008-05-02T14:38:00.000+08:00

First day of May. As the day is approaching, i rlly dono if its a good or bad thing. i gotta state this clear - im not confused. im rlly a selfish gerl. it's either all or nothing. i cant share whn im serious. someone gotta show me if it's worth d bet. i've to noe this is sth firm, stable and reliable first olrite. mayb u cn say im d one losing out bt i dont tink iam. frm past until nw i grew up so much. as in mentally. so i noe clearly what im doing and the conseqences i hav to face. i might b 17 bt dont underestimate me. yes stability is al i nid all the while. perhaps nt getting it made me handle certain things in a scary way this particular year. it makes me socialise more, opening up myself to more options. pls, agitating me is not the way rlly. mayb some ppl u can bt definitely nt me. yes i'll rmb ur line - once a playboy always a playboy.

300408

2008-04-30T18:41:00.000+08:00

on ma way home frm dhobyghuat just now i suddenly feel like talking gfs. but i dono who to call. i suddenly miss the crazy days wit d ladies. now it's like im nt close to any gerls. how sad. pathetic right. and what more i desperately nid a job. i cant stay home to rot anymore. im getting so sick and im spending evryday. now it's money all d way. fuck it.

gotta go down great world now. byee.

280408

2008-04-29T14:18:00.000+08:00

loves!

250408

2008-04-26T16:16:00.000+08:00

surprising wit da cake. two separate times
credits goes to ma two babies hah.
thks fer evrything. im rlly a happy gerl this yr.

love u all so mcuh huhu. wont forget ma 17th bday hees!

and last bt not least i love ma LONSDALE jacket.
bday present frm someone hurhur. lovelove!

stop comparing the price ok moron ;P

240408

2008-04-25T04:29:00.000+08:00

24april today~ im finally 17 bt stil underage -.-
i dontknow why bt im sure i'll love this yr more den the previous
i can surely gurantee that.

sucks man. ok abit out of the topic bt i gotta complain alil. i dont like half attention. i want all all all all allllllll. At least fer the moment whn msging or wit me. grrrrr! greedy to the core. moron forget itttttttttttttt >.<

hmmm back frm genting. so fast uh.
one moment looking forward and now we're back in SG alr.
tsktsk overall i enjoyed the trip. yes in all sense haha.
i guess someone enjoy it alot too. u noe i noe hurhur *winks*
3 in a row. i noe you likeeee.
pics in shah's cam

getting more selfish. cant help bt to act like this
deres sth pulling me towards ur direction.
it's between us.

200408

2008-04-21T15:15:00.000+08:00

6 more hours to genting

4 more days to bday
9 more days to May

omg. deep shit
psycho gerl man

200408

2008-04-21T03:27:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY & TODAY

Icant assume anymore.
I hav to dig out evrything in me to noe whats nxt.
My head is totally blank nw,
it seems like it cant work properly anymore.

icant wait and see anymore.
things are changing evry minute
evn ma mind, swifting frm one side to d other.

170408

2008-04-18T13:19:00.000+08:00

work harder cjx.

u'll make it happen olrite.

i seriously think that will kip me smiling,
nt just nw bt always.
it's bad bt i couldnt be bothered anymore.
and i dont feel it anw.

150408

2008-04-16T14:15:00.000+08:00

awww im damn tired this few days. not enough slp hurhur bt nvm it's super ok. went to hunt fer my laopo's present. she must love me more alr, cus i went to looking high and low walking round and round.

ahhhhhhh! damn. damn damn damn damn damn damnnnnn. i happily wanting to blog abt somethings and i got shit in msn. sucker! i rlly dono whats inside guys' head. i rlly dono what you want. no more mentioning again. k bye!

120408

2008-04-13T09:48:00.000+08:00

Now the temperature's changed
It's just aint the same

110408

2008-04-12T15:05:00.000+08:00

network busy so many times -.-

argh & my pone is rlly getting on my nerves

♥♥♥
i want to see moreeeee obvious hipbones,
more obvious jawline.

i dont care what ppl tink alr. i gotta work on myself.
it's all fer me.

100408

2008-04-11T11:14:00.000+08:00

i noe i've been a real bad gerl

Got you half flippin like fire
Come with me let me take you higher
I'm the object of all your desire
And your attention is all i require

hurhur mon, thur, sun. you guess you guess.
just hanged up wit someone, overseas call *raise eyebrow*
olrites im off to batheeeee.

080408

2008-04-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

huhu lil faye is here.

went to book our genting trip
hurhur means it's confirmed.
so im like finally getting out of sg this boring place

my hairrrrrrrrrrrr >.<
im not satisfied, damn. i want it thicker cn.
one last time and aft one month or two,
i can finally do what i intend to do.

070408

2008-04-08T12:12:00.000+08:00

hurhur someone called me frm malaysia~

guess whooo. sure shock u to death haha
;)

i love it, i cant help it.

Mac this morning wit lesha and shah.
Only three of us. As usual, opps im late again.
Dey always wait fer me bt dint get angry once hees
another reason why i love being wit dem ^_^
bt pls nt to take advantage of dem,
i just love & enjoy their company huhu.

how come ppl canot pronounce my name properly oneee.
it's FAYE (fay) -.-"

i rlly want to change my lousy pone
i want to make myself prettier
i want to make myself slimmer
i want to make alot of moneyyyyyyyy

okay im nida shampoo my hair
i smell cigarettes >.<

060408

2008-04-07T06:32:00.000+08:00

I going alil crazy lastnight cus aft must pushing i realised im standing no where and i dontknow whats holding me back. all these i must thank cjx fer playing wit fire and nw nearly got burn. why am i so playfulllllllll.

darn. im getting more and more playful
no longer like last time
cjx try to behaveeeeeee cn.

040408

2008-04-05T11:25:00.000+08:00

pls dont evr buy samsung u700 kay. u'll regret like shit. urghhhhhhh the lousy photo quality and so user unfriendly and easily scratched and, and alotmore zzzz -.-

Took down quite some notes this few days. it's getting harder, sometimes i dont evn understand =/ luckily we're small class, so can ask in details. He came despite working long hrs past few days and late nite chats. i dono what to say bt am so amazed, cus if it's me i'll fall aslp anywher and evrywher hahaha. of cus i noe hw and why he actually make his way to class tsktsk. heh i gotta say all these are rlly much appreciated! So swit of ya. hmm still few more days to chiong work, this poor boy.

iam recently obsessed wit this gerl.

shes the shit, boss! nyeahh.

-

So many things happened this week quarrels and all. it's all okay nw bt darn! hw all these manage to happen oneeeeee. Eventually nt all ppl can/will follow their heart And whn evrybody follows their heart. I guess we'll start to hav major problems. You clash into me, i clash into u.

the cotton on guy rlly look&feel like ridwan so mcuh.

030408

2008-04-04T11:04:00.001+08:00

so fast. tml fri alr, another one week gone =/
time flies, it's good in certain ways bt also bad.

today is quite fine until.._ ___ __ ____.

i dono wth im doing all this while
i dono if i should feel sorry or happy abt it
i dono hw will things gona turn out ltr on
i dono to let go or hold on
i dono izit wheres my stand anymore

i cant help bt feel d heartache fer u..

030408

2008-04-04T11:04:00.000+08:00

我多不舍得多不懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是感动的

说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么

010408

2008-04-02T14:28:00.000+08:00

I want slimmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
bluekkkkkkk.

300308

2008-03-30T10:29:00.000+08:00

ytd morning i tot i was going to die or sth
it happened three times, damn scary i tell u.
but still this wont stop me frm losing weight.

hoho im going to start a new plan
i hope it will work out nicely teehees.

gona go shop fer some stuffs real soon ;)

280308

2008-03-29T07:29:00.000+08:00

went to check out the genting thing ytd. evrything is rlly going on haha. yeah we're all looking forward to it. hmm. aft tt d rest went bk, went vivo wit u-noe-who. slack all d way till nite den he sent me bk home. yes, public transport fer him hahs.

supposely im nt going to class today, cus some1's nt going and he managed to sako me to skip oso. but too bad, this morning i tink i should go so i went ahead haha. pathetic only four person in class today. nvm, it's okay. i rlly tink i should slim down abit more. im getting chubbier. i seriously nid to lose weight alr. im such a fatty nw ;(

I kip complaining but i kip eating non-stop.
and what more i missed two mths alr
faster come leeeeeee.
i wana b slimmer cannnn.

[EDITED;10.22pm]

slpt all d way until 8pm. aww tired man. fer right nw i feel extremely bad cus i forgotten to msg junior as today is his last day. aiyeee, damn.

assholeeeeeee. i dont want talk to someone alrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
screw him

260308

2008-03-27T13:27:00.000+08:00

im so sick of my parent's nonsense. i cant possibly deliver what exactly what dey expect. yes im always slacking away outside but why?i just dont wana come home having some very tied down responsiblities!

im a person who definately choose and control who and wher i wana be. i can stay at home on weekends like recently cus im totally worn out. if not fer any purpose or anyone whom i wana hang out wit i rather stay home. but d both of u made me wana stay out all day. hang out till late.If i rlly wana b heartless & give u all prob i could just ignore what u told me and leave xuanxuan starving at home. but too bad, in d end i still made my way home to acc him, cant bring myself to do tt. aft all hes still my bro. we do fight but i still indirectly syg him just tt dey dont see it -.-"i rlly dont like this. stop saying im not helping whn im so trying my best to make things work correctly. dont just kip nagging telling me i create problem, i hav mine too. pls stop d nagging. i rlly dont feel like talking to u alr. damn.

im so slpy nw but still stuck in msn haha
hmm. i feel like doing some shopping.

250308

2008-03-26T03:51:00.000+08:00

i've been whining fer dono hw long alr. im feeling so bad today. evrythings turning so weird and wrong. but luckily dere's one guy who shocked me can ahhaha. not s la. hw things nw are so freaky.

like travelling frm past to now ah all of dem hah.

230308

2008-03-24T11:38:00.000+08:00

I finally pluck up my courage and weigh myself just now
okay 43 not so bad. I tot i would be over 45kg or heavier
but still i nid to lose some extra fats.
i noe weight doesnt rlly matter it's d looks
but i just like the 'alil-fragile' kind of look hah dono y.
not too skinny of cus.

no more time to lose. march is coming to d end.
i want evry single thing to be done not just in d middle of it u see..
I rlly nid to look my best. im putting in so much effort in myself nw due to many reasons.
& it feels great to look fabulous too. hurhur lovessssssssss!

woohoo~ sch tml. happy can hees.

TELL YOU WHATTTTTT.
im msn-ing wit my first ever crush in deyi.
wahahaha guess who guess who.
make me recall so many funny things

[EDITED@10.30PM]
teehee! got the job ;)
tml gotta find pants and flats.

i wana call u right now but i noe i cant reach.
i wana hear u at d other end of d pone telling me to work properly,
telling me to behave & b a gd gerl. baby~

220308

2008-03-22T15:15:00.000+08:00

Im freaking upset now. I seriously tink tt i gained alot of weight & grew so much fatter. I see cellulite evrywher. I feel the fats evry now and den. I dont like fats can. nid to tone up tone up tone up tone up. but how how how how howwww. I dont wana be back to square one. cjx rlly dont look gd wit fats. gotta be slim u see =/ i want to lose 5kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how how how how how. i gona try evry single method.
i hope this body will stay strong olrites.
MAKE ME WHO I WANA BE CAN. fucker

200308

2008-03-21T11:10:00.000+08:00

dont u tink this pic look abit like those always taken in zoo. hahaha! pic wit d animal && whos d animal? very obvious is my very hot bro tsktsk. he like ppl saying that olriteees -.-"

and pls pardon remi's face(d one bhind) hahahaha.
these two boys are d joker of d class n my big bros follow by lesha Miss super-nice. if dey're nt in class i tell u..im sure i'll b lz to go sch. love dem can. must make our holiday happen sia. so looking forward. as in fer sch life, this is what i want. not those boring days in deyi. now is d schdays i enjoy and love most. hees ;)

i wana smell my babyboy so muchhhhhhhhh.

180308

2008-03-19T11:30:00.000+08:00

Im seriously hating flu olriteee -.-" zzzz.

met eunice fer lunch at cathy den home swit home.
My book is not wit me again. Yes it's wit him as usual.
but pls bear in mind im not making use/taking advantage of him.

hees! i bought my billabong cap and it's like finally. im loving it so much! i wana be a handsome lady, i just love to be a lil man at times hah. only bought 2tops&sandals. v dissappointing. i couldnt find any clothes i like recently. im not satisfied yet. im planning some stuff alr. i hope things can go accordingly so tt i finally can make it happen to myself. it's fer me. gotta work harder cus it's worth. & i feel like doing sth to my hair/fringe.

hmmm private life. definately something going on, complicated. shall wait and see. seriously i cant be bothered how some ppl look & tink of me. dey're not me so dey dont & wont evr understand this. dey nv been thru all this hardships. v lil ppl can endure so much and so long. i guess only daphy understand this time round cus shes d only one whom i told her evrything in details as in my feelings & all. She wont tink bad abt me cus she wants me to be right. and whatmore it's not as if im letting guys do whatevr dey want. it's me choosing whos gona be right here wit me evry now and den. i dono how im being judge by some ppl but i still tink as long as im comfortable and happy, it's right.

Some ppl just gotta grow up, in this world theres so many things u nid others help. Other den just help sometimes attractions & chemistry is sth we cant hide & stop. Different ppl have different thinking and beliefs. If you tink ure so precious, pls wrap head to toe wit black clothings. u may tink im nonsense but i tink ure more nonsense. sometimes u cant b always beating ard the bush, u gotta go straight to d point. Plssss. it's 2008 now. You just gotta figure out whats best fer u. Different ppl just get to d destination by a different route. If anyone dont agree wit my words just dig it out frm ur brain. i dont care.

160308

2008-03-17T13:49:00.000+08:00

im like craving fer cold drinks evry now&den
but im having running nose since ytd,i suppose.
shit tt flu. irritating can. make my eyes so damn small, so uglyyyy.

i think im fat now la olrites. i nid my face to bcome slimmer, arms bcome smaller, skin bcome darker. how can all this happen b4 april man. so hard. but im gona make it work.

somemore i tink im rlly sick this time. i feel so dizzy zzzzz -.-"
& i notice this boy rlly hav sweet tooth
i seldom see a boy kip wanting to eat icecream hah

150308

2008-03-16T08:37:00.000+08:00

chenmeihao. i just love disturbing her.
anw if anyone wana see how human fly?
show her cockroaches hah.

&& i feel like going tanning right nowwwwww >.<
& i wan knock her head cus i guess she forgotten to call me.

sweetie of mine;my bitching partner
long time since we last mit up and shes missing me like crazy even mrs singh told me tt(bump into her in orchard d other day). serious this time. i'll mit u up this coming week. no more dragging. gotta take lots of pics olrite my darling. u better tell me when ure free. i'll save that one full day fer u. ur shawty always. love u!

caught in the rain four days in a row and im finally down wit flu.
damnit.

140308

2008-03-15T14:35:00.000+08:00

i got a funny feeling.
damn u

120308

2008-03-11T15:32:00.000+08:00

baby's mum called but i dint manage to ans due to batt low& i switch off d pone. tsktsk tml must call bk to find out she wana tell. On d pone wit daphy now & i tink i totally drained out all my energy today. so tired can. im gona slp alr. gdnite my babyboy. ilu~

100308

2008-03-11T14:47:00.000+08:00

kip holding on.
i love my stupid boy.